Forever Twilight

We lay together

On a blanket under the appearing stars

Your arms wrapped around me

And I could stay in this twilight forever

We lay like this

Barely saying a word

Just gazing at the stars

And each other

We lean in for a kiss

That should be oh so sweet

But when I get to where you should be

There is nothing

I open my eyes

And see that you are gone

And so are the stars

My world has been shrouded in total darkness

The stars begin to reappear

But are mostly covered by dark clouds

I begin to run through the shadows

Searching for you

I keep running

A sense of panic filling me completely

I try to scream for you

But no sound escapes my lips

I am scrambling through the gloom

Fear rising

Hoping beyond hope

That I can find you

A small break in the dark

And a figure appears

One that I recognize

All too well

I run as swiftly as my legs will carry me

Towards safety

Towards familiarity

Towards you

 

I know I should be getting close

But the closer I get

To the light

The farther away you seem to be

You look at me

And outstretch your hand

Calling something

But the wind whips it away before I hear

I keep clambering towards you

With my hand reaching out

Yet I cannot grasp your hand

My own slips through air

You are lost to me again

Kept away from me

Although I see you on the outskirts

Of this dark world

I stand still

Not knowing what to do

Whether to reach and run again

Or turn back into the unknown

You are my happiness

My security

My confidence

My love

But can I keep chasing

What I cannot have

Chasing after what is always kept from me

Yet what is all I know

I am stuck in indecision

Questioning

Wondering what path I should take

What is right for me

I collapse onto the ground

Knowing this decision

Will make me or break me

But I cannot choose

My heart and mind say different things

Do I pick the light of all I know

Or the shadows of the unknown

I am stuck in this forever twilight

I'm really sorry it has been so long since I have posted guys. I have written anything in a while, this is my first poem in probably a couple months. Nothing has been inspiring me lately for some reason. This just randomly popped in my head just now and man am I glad it dead; it felt good to write again. Hopefully I'll be posting more soon. Thanks for sticking around to those of you who follow my blog. Love you guys.

*Shoot For The Stars*